I want I want to smile again God there is so much of pain. I wish I knew why it’s like this? But then it's life full of mysteries?

But I want I want to smile again. Like those care free days. Where those days have gone? I wish I knew why it's like this? But then it's life full of mysteries?

But I want I want to smile again. When I make a mistake. I want to laugh and say “oops I did it again”. Now I can't even afford to make small silly mistakes. I wish I knew why it's like this? But then it's life full of mysteries?

But I want I want to smile again. When I hear Jagjit Singh "woh kagaj ki kashti woh barish ka pani" I close my eyes but something inside me is broken. . I wish I knew why it's like this? But then it's life full of mysteries?

 But I want I want to smile again. I want to shout & say……………………..

Don’t know what I want to say because words in my dictionary are so few. What will happen if I won’t have them? I wish I knew why it's like this? But then it's life full of mysteries?